Dear Nightwolf,
This meditation is not part of occult, psionics, magic or anything. It is just a way to get in touch with God. It's comparable to a prayer, but it's a visible one. Like someone can pray, "God, I want to feel you, I want to feel your presence" but you can also do this meditation, which gives God an opening into your mind, through which he can show who He is.
This meditation is like the life of a Christian. You can take the easy path everytime you feel tired and don't feel like you can go on, but what will you get? Just a nice feel, a nice view, a nice show or display, and notice how people are just friendly to you. But does this give you real satisfaction? After a while you just get bored with the feel, or with the nice display, or a nice view etc... and after a while you wish to go on to explore new things. So you will have to take the tough path which will take you to even nicer things, you keep on searching for new things that will give you even greater satisfaction,
At a certain point in your life, you can make a decision for God or things that seem to give you satisfaction in life. But, I can promise you, if you choose for God, you will have no more need to search for things that will give you satisfaction and fulfilment, because God is endless. He will always give you new surprises and new experiences.
This is all I'm going to say tonight
God's love
Michael