Well to be honest [and give testimony] I didn't understand the trinity for a long time neither, but I was raised Catholic [until my father died] and entered into college and had to take a theology course. I didn't understand why it was "ok" to confess to a priest when I could just do that with God, I didn't study anything pertaining to my religion and I often wondered what was the difference between Catholics and Christians. I wasn't the type of kid to ask my parents questions like that because I was more intent on playing games and having fun.
I just believed because my father was a Catholic and my mother was a Christian [and that's how they raised me]. I would pray at night with my mother and hear her talk about how God is good to us and things like that. The main point was that Jesus Christ was our saviour and we look to God for our guidance and protection.
I was always different because for some reason I couldn't find any christian friends...or maybe I wanted to set myself apart because of the amount of guilt and shame I may experience if they should find out that I wanted to drink and have fun. Rebel against society and whatever have you. Not to mention the fact that I was totally critical of people...hypocrisy is everywhere, including some of the people who supposedly are "christians" That turned me off...alot...I didn't want to be a part of that [honestly I still don't, but then who am I to judge? I'm probably no better becuase as they say, it takes one to know one... ]
Anyway, I ended up in cults [not really knowing it] because their main thing was that they would focus on "family values" to reel in unsuspecting believers. I had my religion questioned by alot of muslim brothers/sisters at my work [very first time coming in contact with them face to face], meeting people who left the religion because, although they were brought up in the faith, couldn't understand or prove the existence of God. Even my cousin battled with me and defeated me because I was ignorant in my faith. I's not that I never stopped believing in God, it's just that I didn't know how to go about explaining Him and the relationship I had with Him to other people. The other part being that since I myself wasn't a modelled "Christian" [I'm still working on it] how could I possibly convey any message to anyone else.
One girl called me a "fake christian" after I had renewed my relationship with my Father [she was a christian, but didn't believe in the bible because she felt that it was biased against women and black people and that the men who wrote it probably made it that way and corrupted God's word. She believed only in God and Jesus Christ and that was it.] and it made me think..From the time I was a baby until now I only knew about the New Testament...in college I have only studied the Gospels and nothing more...why was I being lazy about this? I guess I was content in my own little world and didn't want to face the others outside who would criticize me, want to debate me and prove my religion wrong because everyone does have a choice to follow who they wish to, right?
I was sick of hearing others call me a blind follower. I knew God was real and I've had my many wonderful encounters of trust and faith with Him. He's saved me countless of times but people would just call me crazy..also did I really undersand Him? Yes He loves me, but did I love Him? My actions spoke otherwise sometimes and I really needed to understand what I was doing... In order to understand my Father, I had to learn more about Him. Just believing that He loves me is one thing, but understanding why He loves me [and everyone else], why He decided to atone for our sins, why He cares for us so much and how is it that I can please Him and be more like Him...so that's when I decided to really faithfully read the Bible not as a book, but with much prayer, thought and understanding.
So that's how I kind of ended up here. I'm forever greatful and I'm exceptionally greatful that there are alot of wonderful members on this site that are willing to help me [and others] in our quest for knowledge and further understanding. of our Lord Jesus Christ. God Bless each and every one of you. Amen.