One last comment hoping that this may open the door to Truth and that falsehood may be vacated from within you.
If Baptism in water is essential for ones Salvation, then Jesus when Baptized Himself needed to do so in order to receive Salvation. Baptism is an outward display of obedience not an inward acceptance of ones heart and their realization that Christ precious Blood which was shed once and for all for the remission of their sins and the inheritance of Salvation. Water cannot cleanse you from your sins, onl Christs Blood Can!
Take Care!