God resists the proud, yet shows grace to the humble...
If you cannot humble yourself and at least admit to being wrong, then I have no words to offer you friend. If you don't want to apologize cool, no damage has been done to me. But if you cannot admit being wrong, then what credibility do you have of understanding God without humility?
Truth is not given in study and meditation alone. It is manifested through obedience and practice. If a man have not love, he has not truth. If he has pride, he is void of God. If he be a liar, he is void of truth. Where is your good fruit friend?