You know what the sad part is though. That you know you are wrong. That is why these questions will not be answered. Truth cannot be put in this situation. Where if you answer the questions honestly, you prove yourself wrong.
Yet they say God was made flesh, but [is] not the Father or the Spirit.
Was God made flesh? Was the God that was made flesh the Father or Spirit?
THey say GOd gave gifts to men, but [is] not the Son or the Father
Did God give gifts? Is this GOd that gave gifts to men, The Father and Son?
They say the Father is God, but [is] not the Son or the Spirit
Is the Father God? Is the Father the same God that came in the flesh?
If you just answer this one couplet above. That whole doctrine fails.
But I understand how you feel though. I have been there. At a point that I knew something was wrong, but wasn't able to admit it. I kept pushing it to the side, but God would not let me have peace with it. I had to accept that I misunderstood some things. But with dead comes life as well brother. Go to the scripture, not with the words that I am saying to you; nor with the words of what you have learned elsewhere. But we go as a child, void of understanding, that we may be taught. I understand. I wish you knew how much I understand the situation.
I am not saying, tell me I'm right. That doesn't matter to me, honestly. I am just saying go to Him (not me at all). But go to Him as a baby, and let Him bring you up as a son...
With Love,
The Persecuted...