hi.
I'm 17 years old, female, and I don't have the answer to your problems. But Jesus knows the answer. And I will tell you one thing that I know to be true, is that He loved and died for our sins. Your suffering is not in vain, He hears you. He loves you, and just reading what you wrote makes me want to cry because I'd never wish that type of emotional pain upon anyone.
Phillippians 4:18 says, "And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Jesus Christ."
Trust that the Lord will guide you, that He will show you how to deal with all this. I will be praying for you, I'd feel alot better if you could give me your name, or a nick name, so that it's a bit more personal and not "the guy with that problem"