After I was baptised I felt immdeately a change in me.
Before I was baptised I had this uhm "darkish" wall keeping me closed up.
"darkish"? you ask?
Well, I felt like I was closed up inmyself, confined, not free. I was bonded to some things, but I wasn't able to break free.
Everytime I tried I touched that wall and well, metally I was reacting as if I had touched an electrical wire.
It was something I didn't wish to meet, beacouse I couldn't handle it.
After I was baptised this wall had been totally gone, and had been replaced by a "crystal, rainbow light shining wall" that was protective for me and made me feel safe.
Anyways, this is just a sidetrack on your post.
Before I was baptised, I could feel the holy spirit with me, not in me really.
When I was worshipping God, I could feel something near me, surrounding me like a warm blanket, keeping me safe and stuff.
Before I was baptised I had also many times doubt about my faith, many times I felt abandoned and alone, left wondering and doubting.
But I never gave in to those doubts, beacouse I knew God was real.
After I was baptised I could feel a change in me. I felt like I had this fire in my heart that made me warm and feel safe becouse it scared the "wolves" away.
Now it is even less difficult for me to talk about God to anyone. I feel free, unbonded by anything. By my baptism I have really been set free.
By my baptism I feel really much closer to God. Sometimes I just wrap my arms around me and imagine hugging God, and then I can really feel God hugging me back. Tis nice hehe.
Do I feel if God is in me? Yes, I certanly do.
Before I was baptised, my heart had this longing feeling, this searching feeling, this empty feeling in my heart.
Sometimes it was filled, but not continuesly. Now I feel statisfaction, peace, happyness in my heart. It is no longer empty.
Loving God, know the feeling you have when you love someone, well, I have the exact same feeling for God. It's wonderfull.
Light of life? probaly. After my baptism I had many people say to me that I radiate something different. Something that gives me authoroty, makes me look "good".
And yuppers sirree, I feel like a much better person.
I know, I still have some bonds I haven't been willing to release from my past life. But I'm doing my darn best to let them go.
Can't let them go by myself, but, I have my friend Jesus to help me with that
My lill rant for ya.
Michael