ArchivedAsk God to prove himself to you by a sign ?well first thing is that i know that i have bad grammer so you dont have to tell me. also i know i have a spelling problem too. i go to church every sunday. my parents, some of my brothers, and sisters are strong believers, but im not. i dont want to talk to them, becuase then ill feel stupid. you see they got baptized early and believed right away. its true that i dont know much of the bible, even for going to church for so long. im not sure where to start, well i know i should start reading the bible, but i dont know where to start reading. i came here becuase, i typed in a search for proof of god. you see i am wondering how to get rid of doubts. i am wondering how you guys just believe. i want to just believe, but everytime i try, doubts come back. Well i have something, but im still not sure whether to call it proof or not. This was a couple years back, but i still think about it. one day at a church picnic i went on a ride, well its one that four poeple sit on, and it bounces back and forth depending on who is doing it. well im a pretty chubby kid so i rocked the thing. a girl fell off. it was late so i didnt see what happened. i walked away, but she didnt ( no she didnt die just hurt). when i saw her cry and the fact that i didnt help her, man i felt like i could just die. Well a year later at camp i saw her. i couldnt speak to her, becuase im a coward. i prayed that night to see her so i could say how sorry i was. when this happened i couldnt believe it. when i got up the next morning, the first thing i saw was her face go by my window. its true i wanted to tell her im so sorry for what i did, but im a big coward and didnt. i honestly dont know what happened. i konw im a non believer, but my i think my prayer was answered. he gave me a chance to say im sorry, but i couldnt. im guessing he wanted me to see this for some reason. i guess this experince brought me to question myself. i know to some of you that this seems stupid or childish, well to me its not. i think i remeber reading somewhere where he said that he was the light and the reason poeple dont come to it is becuase they love the darkness or are afraid of the light. well i dont love the darkness, but i am afraid. now im just kinda lost, i and i think i need a direction. i know your probably going to say pray to him for a direction. well i know im gonna need that, but i was hoping some you poeple could guide me too. maybe tell me a good site, book, or something that would help me. |
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