For all the bad days I have, Burwelm, my life is a total contradiction to so much of what you just said. I am close to God, and I've been getting closer. And I'm no less gay than I was before. In fact, there was a very special man I fell in love with (the sentiment wasnt returned, to make a long story very short and simple), and the reason I knew it was love is that being around him made me stop and talk to God, more than I had in years, at that time. And it hasnt abated since (it's propelled me on to a faith stronger than ever before), even since I lost him in my life. Thats what made it love, something God sent me, and may still have planned for me - it wasnt just me getting close to him, it was a relationship that strengthened my faith in God. It changed who I was, made me a better person, and it doesnt matter if it didnt work out then - it may still.
That's what's wonderful about faith - when you say "The thing is that homosexuality is not a problem for me but it is a problem for homosexuals," for the first time in sooooo long, I can truly shrug it off, and not care. At the same time, though, I wish others could know the peace my faith brings me, and how empty dogma is. That's what makes what you say ring so empty: you dont get to decide what the "problem" is, or who has it - God does, in keeping, always, with his perfectly good and just nature. I believe my perfectly good and just God created me as I am - with a great capacity to love Him, and others, a desire to do His will and to be useful here on Earth, and who had the great privilege of falling in love with the kindest, most thoughtful, sweet man I have ever met, who, no matter how things work out on Earth, I know I will spend eternity with, in the all-encompassing presence of God, closer there than we ever could have been in this small, mortal life.
What more could I ask to give me this unshakable hope with which I've been imbued? The hope God gives me is so perfect and complete - so worthy of being imparted by Him.
My love for this person I mentioned never involved a kiss, let alone sex. Straights marry who are infertile, or who dont want kids, or who are very old (bottom line: where procreation simply never comes up), but its still two loving people coming together because their relationship brings them closer to God. Sex is moot (straight or gay, for procreation or not) if the two people in the relationship are brought closer to God. Everything else passes away, but one's relationship to God is forever.
You say I "don't get to have a happy marriage?"
God willing: just watch me 8)