Peace all
Peace2God'speople..
You are still confusing you own mind.
I have said in my posts that you are confusing denominational religions with the faith of Christianity.
You seemed to have done that in your last post.
What you said earlier, about your decades of pretenting to be a Christian. I feel that you truley never were.
There are millions of people who spend their lives constantly being involved with their churches in many aspects, and yet never saved.
Being involved with your church for decades, and having so-called Christian brotherhood, doesn't give you salvation brother. Only Jesus does. Not budda, not muhammed or a11ah. Just Jesus.
Some wont agree with me on this. But I highly recommend that you leave your church now. Then you make you Holy Bible your only church on a daily basis.
Then, after time, you will crave being in church, for all the right reasons.
Peace and Godspeed
Pray for Israel